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A year can change a lot, right?  Well, let me tell you that 4 months can also rock your world like crazy too! Here is what I know for sure:

1. God has a crazy beautiful plan mapped out for me and my family... Let me be very clear with this... I do not hold God responsible for my bc but I do hold him responsible for pulling my family and I closer as we navigate this crazy path and for putting many signs in front of us that let us know we were heading in the right direction .

2. I officially found out yesterday that I only had 2 tumors in my left breast and not 3 which was originally suspected...funny what we consider good news as we move forward right?

3. I have never ever felt more in love with my husband as I do now... when I look at him I see a man who loves me unconditionally....

4. I know God is using my kiddos to show me love and let me know that Jeff and I have been doing a great job as parents.... They truly are our prized possessions.  They are wise beyond their years and full of good.  I look at them and know that I will forever have a rainbow among the storm.

5. I seriously have the 2 best friends in the world... without a question hands down. Again, to know one is right down the street..literally the same block and  she and her husband would do anything anytime to help our family and the other although she lives in a different state has dropped her life to come help me is more than I could ever ask for.  

6. That my family (extended family) rocks. I know they aren't sure what to do to help but their love and prayers are awesome.

7. The people I that have come into my life via.. breast cancer, our kids sporting teams, preschool parents etc.. have shown me that random acts of kindness can change a situation and that so many people are good.

8. I have learned that children rock! I know that sounds strange but I was afraid my bald head would literally scare some but the truth is most kids don't notice and the ones that do think I look like a superhero...So that kind of rocks too!

9. My Mom is amazing!!! enough said

10. That this too shall pass and when it does Ill be standing tall smiling thanking everyone who rallied along with me... and I'll probably be rocking a bad ass pixie cut cause Ill be so busy enjoying life I refuse to waste time.

So, as 2014 comes to a close I won't lie I am a tiny bit anxious to see it come to a close but thats only because I want March 5th to get here.   I have embraced the saying " don't let the tail wag the dog"...I refuse to give this cancer more power than it deserves.  We are making plans, finishing house projects and still living our life because truthfully through all of this it has been made clear that life is beautiful.. inspite of its small mishaps and imperfections. My Dad once told me when I faced a disappoint I would never know how good it felt to reach the top of the mountain and see the view if I had never been in the deepest valley..well friends believe me when I tell you the view from the top will be glorious..that "glorious unfolding".  So as you make your changes for the new year... try to love more, do more good, laugh more....

One more quick thing...My friend told me the other day that she thinks I am glowing in my pictures... I teased that it was the chemo but truthfully I know what she is talking about... that glow she is mentioning is actually  all the love and happiness I feel right now.... from all of you ....
xoxoxo,
Jackie